Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step. What great words of wisdom! Taking that first step is always the hardest. Fear is a hindrance. Step past it.
Accept that years were wasted on an alcoholic. Accept that you were married to a man who was in denial. Let go of the abuse you took from an alcoholic. Let go of the man who chose drinking over his children and wife. Have faith in what will be.