i feel okay now i feel at peace with myself but i still wanna cut it's like an addiction that you can never fully escape and god i want to have the physical pain so i can forget about the mental pain and just watch the blood but i just dont wanna get sucked back in and i dont wanna accidentally influence the people who are happy to harm themselves i just want to be happy so others can be happy and maybe i wouldnt be such a fuckup but someone enjoyable
